Reflective

Okay, I realize my previous post painted me as kind of a sentimental sap who only lives in the past (cue Pan-like flute). Also, the idea that I'd rather be settled down than jet-setting around the world is only partly true. Most of the time the idea of being settled somewhere for the rest of my life makes me feel trapped and anxious. But I can see the appeal of it to other people and I feel like someday I'll want to do the same...just not in my 20s.

I'm actually very lucky in that, although most of the time I'm either reminiscing or looking forward to something, I can actually live in the moment from time to time. What I mean is that--as morbid as it may sound, I sometimes get tired and fed up with life--but I can also recognize those moments when I truly love living. Most of the time, this corresponds with good weather ;-), good friends, and good music. But it can also be something simple like accomplishing some small task. This feeling sort of washes over me and fills me with contentment. Too many people don't recognize all they have. I guess it's human nature to take things for granted. Hell, I do it all the time--I get impatient and grumpy with my loved ones. But in the end, I'm so grateful to have them at all, even when I feel like I'd be better off without anyone.