Can't sleep

I'm writing this relatively late at night, since I can't really sleep. It feels like that last night of summer vacation before you go back to school and you can't get to sleep because you're used to going to bed much later. I've just had a 5-day vacation, courtesy of A) Independence Day and B) My boss, who is currently vacationing in Spain and decided to be generous and give us the rest of the week off. Really nice in theory, but it's totally throwing my schedule off. I basically just lounged around and did nothing. I even brought some work home with me but barely looked at it...too many distractions at home. Now if I had some notice for this mini-holiday, I might've actually planned to go somewhere, but alas, I was not foretold and therefore spent much of my time outside getting sunburned.

Now, it's not that I got sunburned too badly, but I do have these unattractive red patches all over and they're kind of itchy...not fun. I decided that I'm pretty foolish for sunbathing at all. It's not like I get tan. Any color I do get is usually pink/red and it's never even; just sort of blotchy everywhere. I thought I would at least lay out to even out the stupid v-neck shirt tan line I always seem to get from walking around at lunchtime, especially since the dress I'm wearing for a wedding next month is basically strapless (the straps are just two thin beaded chains). I think I'm going to abandon that idea and stop going out in the sun, because even when I put sunscreen on, I get burned. Really, the only reason I even enjoy going to the beach is the ocean. I don't like sand, especially how it gets EVERYWHERE, and I hate how hot it gets in the sun, and the gloppy sunscreen I have to apply every hour. However, I really really love swimming in the ocean and since I'm already at the beach (and it's so close to my house) I figure I'll stay for a few chapters of my book, or a quick nap. Invariably, I always leave after an hour and a half or so, when most people are still arriving. I also feel like I shouldn't take the beach for granted, especially since this will be my last summer in such close proximity to it. Sometimes I feel like I'm going just because I feel I should. I guess it's better to get too much of something, so that you get your fill and don't end up wishing you'd had more of it. I think that's the goal for me with some things. I'm just trying to fill up on things, experiences, sights, places, people, so I can get fed up and not want them anymore later when they are no longer available to me. Does that make sense?